Monsters

"I couldn't get with the program, and I couldn't listen to them, it was like trying to think in reverse ... and I don't want to slide into apathy, and I don't want to die in captivity ... But these Monsters follow me around, hunting me down, try to wipe me out"

An event or incident may be perceived to be trivial ... How can someone make judgement on what is, and isn't, a trivial event, and the determine how it may effect someone? ... Every situation is perceived differently by each person ... Whether seen as negative, positive or indifferent lies in the eye of the beholder ...

How one reaches a *breaking point* can vary ... One incident ... A complete lack of events ... A repeat of unfortunate events ... A multitude of moments snowballing out of control until you're faced with a much larger issue ...

When it comes to the path I travel the journey is mountainous and rocky ... Although at times the path appears smoother, the road ahead seems clearer, and I don't find the need to approach with so much caution ... My defences ease a little ... The feeling of impending turmoil ebbs ...

This is when it all goes wrong ... Like a sudden movement in the shadows, a threat once thought to be rid of, unawares it pounces upon me without warning ... Defences down ... Vulnerable ... Weak ... Uncertainty, panic, fear, confusion and emptiness engulfs me ...

Like a tornado that strikes, effortlessly forcing everything into turmoil ... Approaching quickly with little time to prepare ... Moving through so fast the damage done unknown ... Then silence ... Isolation ... The *calm* after the storm ... Immeasurable destruction, the scattered debris, a constant reminder of it's haunting presence and power ...

Most unnerving the unpredictability ... Not knowing when the tornado will strike again ... No ability to stop it occurring again ... My only defence must be built from experience ... Becoming familiar with the signs ... Acknowledging that change in the wind ... Aware of higher risk areas; sheltering myself in safer surroundings ...

I can only cushion my landing ...

Not stop the fall completely ...